honesty goes a long way

I don't understand why people can't just be honest, It may hurt the other person at first but 9 out of 10 times it hurts them less to know the truth right away.
I am so tired of people lying to me especially guys, just tell me the truth, I don't want anything to do with you if you don't tell me the truth.

why is it so hard anymore

I can't remember the last time I was really happy.
Yes this will be full of complaints.
I just need to rant.

I've lost all trust in people. I've lost most of my friends. I need to learn self control, so I can try and get myself out of debt. my house makes me unhappy, I want to get away from here and have a decent place to live. I am so behind in life. I need to get my GED, and find some way to go to college.

I cant get financial aid because my dad makes to much money, even though he makes less than most kids parents on financial aid, he also doesn't live with me, and he wont help me pay for college.
And my mom can't afford to help me.

I cant afford to get a car, and even when I do get a car I will be even more in debt.
It just seems like I am stuck being this way for a long time.
Its hard to stay positive anymore.

I am who I am

I have been thinking a lot lately, and I need to just enjoy who I am. I may not be who I want to be but as long as I try and do what I think is right I will be okay. I make a lot of mistakes and people don't seem to think about that till they make a mistake. We are all human and all we want is love and to be loved, and we mess up a lot along the way. It's just a matter of if we learn from it. I am trying to learn.

I have nothing to say in here tonight.
I am happy.
I am finding out who my friends are.
This is a boring entry.